Change !

On Sundays, it was my task in my childhood to get some essential items from nearby grocery store and it happened mostly in early mornings, where I noticed a shopkeeper giving aarathi repeatedly and doing some traditional way of praying GOD by mere external mannerisms. I felt his actions exhibited fear of something, instead of love towards GOD. Out of curiosity when enquired about it, my well wishers told me that he might got feared about the change in his upcoming business transactions. On that day, out of my childhood innocence, I thought when I grow up, i should chose a path for my livelihood, which doesn't change much or which should not be dependent on any external situations. 

When i landed up in informatique industry, it was my realization during recession times that I was in a well wherein i don't want to swim since my childhood, but had to swim for my financial survival; recession times enlightened me the dependency of inflation, commodity, earnings, jobs and expenses. As one of the factor changes, the other changes and most unfortunately disproportional. This fact dawned upon me that my childhood dream about having a changless livelihood is a mere hallucination and learnt the impacts of its transient nature. 

In my association with near and dear, I learnt that their perception on a subject changed as per the situations. It's nothing different than the economics concept of demand and supply; just for a matter of change, people termed the same concept as Perception. 

As time passed on, when i lost my mother, it shook me off and it took lot of time to accept that change in my life. 

When my daughter was born, I observed change in her facial expressions every day, as days passed by change is noticeable every month, every year and so on. This observation reminded me that I too had changed since my childhood, both physical and psychological, which I might have noticed earlier as well but never felt in such a crystal clear fashion as i felt at that moment. 

Sometimes, it happened that i noticed beforehand a possible impact of my earlier decision due to changed circumstances. In such events I quickly decided to change my earlier decision in accordance with changed situations; and in this process I experienced a progressive change in my lifestyle. 

Recently when I had to lockdown myself in a 40m2 flat for around 2 months due to coronavirus outbreak, I learnt the way the economy of each of the country is tightly coupled with a tragic situation happened in certain part of the world because of acts of certain group of maniac headed people. And during this lockdown period, the changes that i had to incorporate in my life for my survival was beyond my imagination. 

Now I have to admit the fact that after each of these changes in my life experiences, my HEART never failed to whisper to me softly the old saying - "CHANGE is inevitable !"